For years I beat myself up wondering what I did wrong when I was pregnant. What did I do that caused all these delayment. Was it because I drank coffee? Was it because I was around second hand smoke? Then I got the call from the doctor telling me that Nate had Fragile X. I was not sure if I was happy that I had answer or mad because I did give him this. The past six months I have done a lot of soul searching.
As a parent we have all these BIG hopes and dreams for our children. I do!! When I first found out Nate had fx, the first questions I had was "what does his future hold". Will he be able to live on his own? Will he be able to handle school and college? What about a job and drive a car? I know only the future will tell. What I do know I need to be as positive as I can be.
Nate loves school. He knows all the kids names in his class. He even has a crush on his teacher. (Its so cute) Nate counted backward from 5 to 1 the other day. I was so proud of him. He did it all on his own. I know down the road he will have hurdles. I hope as a mom that I can give him the confidence for him to jump over those hurdles. My hopes and dreams are still there. My goals for him are day by day goals.
I am blessed that I have a wonderful little boy. The days where I'm stressed all I have to do is look at his smile. My heart melts. I pray each day that the big mean world won't be mean to my wonderful little boy.
I hope everyone has a good day:)
I remember wondering the same things you talked about. I even went so far as not returning to my ob/gyn because I was afraid something he did during delivery had caused all the delays. Eventually, of course, we got the diagnosis. Since then, we take it a day at a time. Josh is the happiest teenager I've ever met. He has taught me so much about life and helped me grow as a person, as I was helping him.
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